July 31, 2010

disposable

YouTube: Sakura trailer

i really want to see this movie.Shiina Ringo does the soundtrack!

"Tayuu were highly trained and educated performers skilled in such arts as music, dance, poetry, calligraphy, tea ceremony, and flower arrangement. Because there were very few, access to them was very difficult. Tayuu could also reject men, who could see them only by special appointment."

my mom sent me some old crap from my childhood randomly. i'm not really sure why she sent it to me and why she didn't want to hold onto it. but! she sent me some chewed up, old, dirty ponies i used to play in the dirt with on my grandparents' farm. my mom's awesome because she saved them for me when my dad said to throw them away. XD

 i really like the pink, blonde-haired pony with balloons all over her. she's like a party girl pony! the weird little aardvark-lookin' dude, i don't really remember him at all, but he's Stardust from the Moon Dreamers.



July 29, 2010

take me higher

 actress Sophia Bush boycotts Urban Outfitters for their "Eat Less" t-shirt. 
wtf, i can't believe people thought this was a-okay, especially a clothing distributor aimed mostly at young girls. what a bunch of assfaces. i have no idea who this actress is, but she is awesome for this.

new tablet is bugging me. arrrrgh. so i'm just doing sketchy shit right now.
here's a super deformed, cartoony Ronnie sketch inspired by Shane Glines.

that is a 100% accurate depiction of a fight scene in Ultra Man, no lie! but i'm loving it so far despite the 70's Japanese man ass and balls in tight rubber being all up in my face (or maybe because of? hmmm). just got done with an ep about a green, locust-y alien with claw hands that freezes people and turns them green because it can move faster than humans can perceive time (?) or something. good stuff.

July 23, 2010

Sugar Ninjas!

Sugar Ninjas, the anthology put together by Bob Pendarvis featuring all-female comic creators including yours truly in her published debut, is finally out! my comic, "The Adventures of Space Cat," is in the "Spicy" book (which is kind of odd, since i think it's the most family-friendly thing i've probably ever done...but i think it was more of a space issue than exact classification). both books look great, though. i'm really impressed by the quality of the artists i'm amongst! it kinda makes me feel bad about my comic, heh. but anyway. yeah, you should buy it!!

July 22, 2010

rage

i'm thinking joining formspring was a bad idea. i got the idea from a friend of mine, but she's a lot more clever/popular than i am, and so all of her questions and answers are really cheeky and fun and creative. i've only gotten a handful asked by real, actual people, and mine all deal with my sexuality in some form or another. wtf? but today's was the kicker.


what. the. fuck.

 i don't know where to begin.

i'm fat. oh harhar! you found me out.  how clever of you. though i can't tell if you're making fun of me for being fat, using fat as a simple descriptive term, or you're angrily lashing out at me for being a "fatty" that you (somehow) have presumed to be trying to date (or "groove") outside of my "class," or perhaps are angry that you perceive me (again, not sure how) to only be attracted to "skinny fucks" instead of whatever more deserving weight class you perceive yourself as belonging to.

let me answer your question as simply and clearly as i can first, since you were so kind, tactful and polite with your inquiry: IT IS NONE OF YOUR GODDAMNED BUSINESS WHO OR WHAT I AM ATTRACTED TO.  it is mine, nobody else's. i don't care who you are, your idiotic male privilege is showing.

let me dispel a few myths for you that i'm sure you probably ascribe to, and in the process maybe educate you just a teeny bit. just because a woman is fat doesn't mean she has low self-esteem or is starved for attention. it doesn't mean she will jump somebody's bones just because they say they like fatties. It's the same as faux-feminists who profess their distaste for hair removal/wearing contacts/traditionally feminine attire/cosmetic surgery/makeup, and women who use/perform these things, etc.,  just to get laid. if you go through life using this tactic, basically what you are saying is "i would have sex with you/people like you, so you should like me for that." i don't need your validation. FUCK YOU. seriously. you are simply reminding women that their societal worth is measured only by how much men want to fuck us. as if my rage needed soothing rather than a constructive outlet.

and if you are simply hating on me for being "fat," and by proxy all women of size, FUCK YOU again. with something hard and sand-papery. being a certain size or body type is not a crime, and regardless of whether or not you personally find it attractive, i deserve the exact same goddamn respect and dignity as anyone else.  there are many different ranges of bodies and what they do and what they're capable of and how people treat them.

similarly, it is soooo not cool to refer to thin people as "skinny fucks." FUCK YOU yet again.  if you are fat and are lashing out at thin people who you perceive as enemies, then you are doubly ignorant. Being pro-something doesn't mean you have to be anti-something else. Supporting fat people doesn't mean hating on thin people. No matter what size, all people deserve respect. Thin people are judged just as much on their appearance as bigger people, particularly the thinner they get, and although it's more often a positive kind of stereotyping, it's still just as bad. Hating on people out of jealousy just shows what a small person you are, and says a lot more about you than the people you're hating on.

But back to your topic of sexual attraction, or as you so eloquently put it, "grooving on" others. sexual attraction is based on a host of complex social and psychological factors that often fluctuate over time. it is not a negative or positive thing to be attracted to certain physical types (or personality types, or people with specific interests).  it's normal, and we (almost) all do it. if someone is attracted to the current, mainstream concept of what is sexy, that's okay. most of us are, having been conditioned into it before we even had sexual feelings. conversely, if you are not attracted to the modern, mainstream sexy ideal, that's okay too, but it does not make you exceptional. it does not make you better than anyone else. you do not deserve praise, a pat on the head, or a blow job for telling people. it also doesn't give you the right to judge anyone, male or female or any of the gender identities in between, for whomever they are attracted to. contrary to what you might believe, there aren't rigid "fat blobs only" and "skinny fuckers only" relationship classes. that's the wonderful thing; we have the freedom to be with whomever we want! shocking, i know. we can even choose to be alone and not "groove on" ANYONE if we don't want to! that's fucking unbelievable, right?!? i mean, a woman of any size not defining herself by people wanting to fuck her AND not defining herself by a relationship?? incredible!

so in closing, i hope this is enough information to answer your question, and i hope i helped to educate you just a bit, and hopefully caused you to think about how you perceive women/people in general through the lens of your male privilege.

July 16, 2010

always

i forgot that drawing was fun. but i remembered last night. and today at work.

July 14, 2010

fucker

wasn't gonna post these, but what the fuck. guess i can always delete this later if i want.

July 12, 2010

awakening

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things didn't work out with smart, funny, amazingly beautiful cosmetologist. just as i was beginning to think we should hang out, she deleted her dating site profile before i could get any of her contact info. c'est la vie.

i'm kind of engaging in a little experiment/dare with myself to see how fucking disgustingly dirty i'll let the bathroom sink get before i clean it.

July 7, 2010

too chi, chi

went to Chicago for the first time. saw dinosaur skeletons for the first time. saw mummies for the first time. so many firsts! it was brief, but great. don't think i can handle a big city life, though. here's a bunch of boring pictures and stuff.

goats. i dunno.
t-rex arms are so. small.
wtf was up with this shark??? nature is insane.
FUCK YEAH

my creepy silhouette with some "man-eating" lions.

prehistoric shizz
 another bad-ass extinction victim  i'm fond of
true dat, Darwin. Darwin is my homeboy.
my first mummy!
me and Lyuba

hot as balls, but pretty.
i could look at jellyfish all day<3
omg, seahorses! i love them!
cutest sign ever?
TYPICAL TOURISTY SHOT. ugh. from certain angles i look like a man in drag. and not in an attractive way.

most of the aquarium action is on video.
video
other stuff happened, but i wasn't quite as video/picture-happy as i usually am on trips. Chicago seems like a really amazing city and i'd love to go back there sometime and see it up close and explore it more.

July 2, 2010

vital babetistics

ahahahaha we've come a long way, baby!

p.s. what does "wearing chains" mean? O_o is there some kidnap-victim chain-bondage april action figure?

watched 28 weeks later. gotta be one of the worst movies i've ever seen. like you never really get a chance to know or like any of the characters, but what frustrated me most is that nothing anyone does through the whole movie makes any kind of sense. i kind of hate that one of my favorite movies ever got this crap as a sequel. but at least it didn't dig up and trash the old characters. and they're so utterly different i'm able to kind of compartmentalize them as totally different movies in my mind. so my fantasies about being a machete-wielding badass in a grimly hopeful post-apocalyptic world with a dreamy cillian murphy with a headwound are preserved.

July 1, 2010

wish i could buy a new soul

new earrings :3 they're leopards. i love them. i can't believe they were selling something this badass at my work.


correcting...fixing...implies something was broken....

staring into the void
...now for a quick run to clear my mind.