February 16, 2012

why must i stay here

a customer snuck up on me at work and caught me drawing this, then laughed and said it was funny...hmm, okay....



i haven't been posting/drawing much because i've been going through some stuff...i was (am?) in a really bad place with my depression and anxiety issues, and that combined with my job caused me to lose all passion and interest in life, and things i used to enjoy, like drawing. i knew i couldn't go on living this way much longer, so i reached out and am seeing a therapist for the first time in my adult life. it's a bit nerve-wracking for someone like me, but i'm beginning to feel like there's hope again. i started a new livejournal, dinosaurblood.livejournal.com, mainly as a coping strategy since i basically didn't have one, or utilized really counterproductive ones. it's mainly just me ruminating way too much about pointless stuff and venting about my personal stresses and trying to make sense out of my sad, rambling mind, so i totally understand if you don't want to be my lj friend and read it.

otherwise...i don't like my job and am going to start looking for another one. i'm reading a lot, that's one of the few things i still get enjoyment out of. oh, and Sailor Moon. i got Rob to start watching it with me and now we're slowly rewatching the entire series from the beginning. everything is going to be okay.

3 comments:

Nick Marino said...

I'm sorry to hear that you've been feeling really down lately. I hope things go well with the therapist. And I know how much of a strain a shitty job can be when you're already feeling bad... I say go for it and find something new!

ross said...

aw, Kaylie!!! :( i wish we could hang out and i'd try to cheer you up. i hope the job search turns up something better, just hang in there. now i'm not sure if you should watch Mac & Me for the podcast, that sure as hell won't make things better.

Kaylie said...

Nick: thanks :) i think improving the job situation will help a lot, but it may take a while. but i'm learning some new coping strategies to help me through it in the meantime. in a lot of ways it's still better than retail at least!

Ross: aww haha i wish we could hang out too, that would definitely cheer me up! as much as i would like to use any excuse to not watch Mac and me, i have to fulfill my duty. ;)