February 24, 2012

sailor moon saved my life

i watched this episode of Sailor Moon on a day i was feeling my depression really hard, and i wanted to vanish...and this scene brought me to tears. i felt like Sailor Moon/Neo Queen Serenity was talking directly to me, telling me that i'm surrounded by people who care, that she believes in me, and not to give up. i felt so much better after Usagi told me i'm not alone. :,)

i think i finally understand how a lot of people feel about their favorite heroes in comics...that's how i feel about Sailor Moon. i've never been into super hero comics and never really understood their appeal, but maybe now i do a little. i fell in love with Sailor Moon from the very first time i saw one of the horribly dubbed episodes on local cable tv...even though i hate getting up early and like sleeping in, i would get up extra early just to watch it. it was unlike anything i'd ever seen before...ordinary girls who became super heroines. and their leader, Usagi, was clumsy, did badly in school, and liked to eat too much and goof off...this was the first heroine i could ever really relate to! everyone loved Usagi because she had such a pure, giving heart, full of love for everyone. i think even for me.

Sailor Moon's always been my biggest hero, but now especially, more than ever. all of the sailor soldiers, and so many other characters in general are so great...my other favorite senshi, Sailor Jupiter, taught me that it was okay to be a big, boyish girl, and i shouldn't let that stop me from doing things i want to do. Luna, for always trying her hardest and even jumping into the fray, even though she's just a small kitty without any offensive super powers, she never gives up. and Sailor Uranus, my androgynous idol, helped me to feel more comfortable about my queerness long before i really figured it out. i really want to read the manga, but they're so hard to find/expensive...hopefully some day.

Sailor Moon Transformation Make Up Tutorial by Michelle Phan, YouTube

this video also made me tear up, i mean the message at the end, skip to about 8:08...it's so true. i want to try harder to make my dreams come true, and stop letting stuff hold me back. i want to start imagining myself as a super hero, like Sailor Moon, a sailor senshi, when i get scared, or feel powerless. i want to be brave, and full of love, like Usagi. thank you, Naoko Takeuchi, for giving me my hero.

thank you, Sailor Moon.


ross said...

aw, that's awesome!!! :)
i've always kinda wanted to watch Sailor Moon, i used to be super into the shojo type stuff back in the day, but it's one of those shows with 800 episodes and a ton of volumes of the comic series that it was always too daunting for me to dive into.

i wish Shadoweyes could do something like this for someone, but probably a very long shot. probably not pure-hearted enough, either. XD

i'm glad you're hanging in there, Kaylie!!

Kaylie said...

aww, Shadoweyes is definitely my other favorite super heroe!!! i'm sure Shadoweyes touches a lot more people than you think and will continue to. Shadoweyes has definitely inspired me and made me tear up. :) maybe it would be cool to have Shadoweyes help out someone who's depressed or suicidal, like she runs into a jumper on a bridge or building or something. for some reason it's kind of rare in media, but it really grabs me whenever i see depression addressed in any kind of serious/sympathetic way, i think that's why the sailor moon thing was so moving to me. sorry if i sound weird or whatever, it's just a suggestion, i just see it as something that would fit in Shadoweyes really well, and i think it would have the potential to help a lot of people. i know it definitely got me when Shadoweyes saves that fat girl who's getting bullied, and when she's like "i love you, Shadoweyes!" i was like "yeah, i love you Shadoweyes!" XD and i really wanted to hug her when she beats everyone up for making fun of Sparkle's stutter!