work memo pad doodles
i'm thinking about applying for an apprenticeship at a tattoo shop....
just a quick note to say i'm still alive. i've been veeeery busy lately....for me, anyway. i got a new job doing clerical/receptionist stuff at a car dealership. everybody's really nice, the pay is good, and the girl that did my job before me was a huge screw-up i guess, so i look amazing by comparison. it's rough getting used to a full-time schedule, though. i haven't really had much time to draw, or anything else.
and i'm hesitant to admit it, but i just haven't really wanted to draw, or care about drawing anymore. i'm wondering if it's just things being kinda hectic right now and maybe once i settle in i'll want to go back to drawing and stuff, but i'm also slightly worried that i just don't feel it anymore. i've always felt like nobody really cares about what i'm doing, i mean when you get right down to it, but that was okay, because i still cared and that was enough. but now i don't even care anymore, so...i'm not sure how to feel about that.
but i've said plenty of times in the past that i'm going to quit art/comics and i always came back, so who knows. maybe it's just another one of those things. just putting my energy into something nobody cares about, not even me, seems like a huge waste of time right now, and time seems to be slipping by so fast i'm afraid i'm going to wake up tomorrow and i'll be eighty.